Ive been struggling with my weight for a lot of years now, struggling to find clothes that fit right and still make me look attractive. My self esteem has steadily been dropping, despite my dear husband telling me I was sexy or beautiful. I just didnt feel it. Im not exactly obese, but Im no longer thin either. I need to lose 50 lbs to be within normal range.
Almost 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with high cholesterol and triglycerides. I wasnt totally shocked, because my dad has struggled with it for ages, but Im only 28, and I eat healthier than most people do. So when they (the doctors) told me my numbers were the highest they had ever seen, I was pretty shocked. I thought, "Ok. Ill just start some form of exercise, and eat less fattening foods." Well, I never started working out, I was too busy and had no energy (this was somewhat legitimate, as I had suffered from an emergency abdominal surgery to remove a ruptured ovary, followed by a pulmonary embolism in each of my lungs, and it took me almost a year to recuperate and feel normal again). I had any number of excuses, like not having a partner to feeling silly. Go figure. So a few months after my initial diagnosis, I developed pancreatitis, an incredibly painful inflammation of the pancreas. Ordinarily this is something that happens to people who drink alcohol in excess, but it happened to me because I have extraordinarily high triglycerides, fat in the blood.
In short, I was very sick for a couple of weeks and had to go without eating for a week to reduce the inflammation. A year went by, with no recurrences, but I wasnt doing anything about it either. In fact, I stopped taking my medications, and started to eat bad things that I normally didnt eat often. I was in a depression for a bit, and I did what made me feel good.
Well, fourteen months after my first episode, I had another. I spent 10 days in the hospital this time, not eating or drinking anything, being miserable away from my family. I vowed to change things, so this wouldnt happen again. That was 2 months ago.
Well I finally decided to do something about it! I adopted myself a workout buddy, an acquaintance from down the street who needs to lose weight too. Were going to start tonight, and Im pretty excited about it. Im excited because Im taking action, taking control from my body and doing something, just for me. I dont want to have a heart attack at 30 or 40 because I wasnt careful, and I dont want to continue to take so much medication. Not to mention, I dont want to have another bout of pancreatitis.
So tonight were going to walk/jog, and do some lunges and squats and I will add weight lifting and yoga to my routine. I cant wait to get started.... Wish me luck!!